Figuring Out My Life Working At A Marketing Online And Web Design Firm
Lately my life has been a train wreck. I have a hard time attempting to accomplish anything I put my mind to. I already have my bachelor degree but I really would like to take Web Development classes just to have a grip on what I am doing. I work for a Sponsored Links firm in Chicago. I like my job, but not enough to call it a career . I am concerned that because I am shy and keep to myself that I am hurting my position at my company. The first time I heard about Search Engine Optimization, I was in college and didn’t even consider the fact that this might be my job after graduation .
Two years down the road I find myself here, working as a secretary/market analyst wondering how I wound up in this field. After graduation I had high hopes of becoming something, but Search Engine Optimization was not one of them. I know that you have to put your time in before you can actually get into a real position, but that was what my other job was for. Honestly I am beginning to wonder why I quit my other job . Working for a Sponsored Links is fine but I had something going for me at my previous position . I really don’t have a right to be complaining right now, considering I did this to myself. I really just didn’t picture working with Search Engine Optimization after working as a financial analyst for a year and a half .
Someday I am going to get some guts and say something . My bosses would be forced to listen to me explain why I do what I do, and hopefully begin to understand. I really don’t mind working with PPC Search Engine as a 9 to 5 career. I don’t mind that but I do mind it when people talk down to me just because I am little and don’t stick up for myself. There is one person in particular whom bothers me, smiling at me condescendingly all the time. I understand that if this is my biggest problem then I am a lucky girl. That’s where my life in shambles comes in. My boyfriend, whom also worked in Search Engine Optimization as well, and I have not been getting along, after almost two years together . He is always mad at me for not living up to my dreams . He knows what it is like because he used to work in Web Development too. Once he was offered a position as an engineer downtown, he put his two weeks in, the job was just a filler for him. I long to put my two weeks in at the Search Engine Optimization company.
Soon enough I will have had enough jobs to realize what I want and don’t want out of life. I am terrified that one day I will just pick up and leave everything, without any regrets, and also leaving my boyfriend behind. My family calls me the gypsy, just roaming all over the US. I really have to figure out my next career move, and if it is going to involve Marketing Online or Web Development.